Is it an angel or the devil?
Usually, I would post a relationship related article, but today I just need to write out what is in my head.
First of all, I am blessed with health and the health of my family and close friends. I have a roof over my head, food and a job.
What I am struggling with is the amount of pressure and unrealistic expectations of my workplace, the seemingly never-ending loss of freedoms and the overall depressing gloom of 15+ months of COVID.
With the understanding that everyone has been under some sort of pressure since COVID and many people have lost loved ones, it pains me to even think about my “issues”.
That is why the struggle becomes even harder, knowing that my problems are not as important as others.
It feels as though I am not entitled to feel poorly, down or frustrated because I haven’t endured a loss of life due to COVID.
The push and pull is relentless like the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other both speaking to me at once.
The angel says “yes” you have the right to feel those negative feelings, just don’t drown in them and then the devil says “no” you don’t, stop whining, complaining and suck it up!
As I am trying to juggle these feelings and the ceaseless demands, it became apparent that there must be others who are feeling like me.
If you are, this is the part where “self-care” is supposed to be suggested. With that, yes “self-care” is a powerful and helpful tool, but I would like to add that just acknowledging your feelings as valid will help too. It helped me to just own my feelings and work through them instead of denying myself the right that they exist.
Be good to yourself, use self-care, vent, release and tell that devil to shut up.
Leah Kay Rossi